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Monday, December 7, 2009
Not So Frustrated
Okay, in reference to my previous blog, as frustrated as I get with G, it is all worth it. As much as a I feel like at times she doesn't listen or isn't learning, for those times she does, it is totally worth all the effort and time I have invested.
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Current Frustration
Okay, this will be a rambling blog with no organization to it as I am just going to write what comes to my mind on this topic. I am currently frustrated with G. I have poured my heart and soul into this child and have been trying to make a difference in her life. Once again, I feel as that it is all for naught. She has streaks where she's good, and then streaks where she's just off and not the sweet G I know. Lately, she has shown little respect and gratitude, and I don't know why she has been that way. She has attitude at basketball where she just gives up and doesn't even try. I don't know why it is, but at her last practice her demeanor completely changed, and then I learn that she's mad that others aren't as good as her. That is what is called conceit, and I don't like conceited people. I get it. She wants to be the center of attention, but we all know life is not like that. Also, we all now in team sports, to be successful, you have to be a team player. I don't know how to teach her these life lessons because no matter what I say, she doesn't listen. Well, that's one random thing about my frustration.
Secondly, I do a lot for this child, and I mean a lot. I love spending time with her and doing things with her, but the thank you's are few and far between. For example, I know she loves the Twilight series, so as a surprise last week, I took her to see the New Moon movie and bought her a drink and popcorn. We all know how much that costs. Did I get a thank you? Nope, sure didn't. I also had a jewelry party recently where I got a ton of jewelry, and I decided to order her a couple things of my *free* items, which aren't actually free because you still pay shipping and tax. I got her a silver cross ring, and bracelet that has interchangeable sayings such as faith, hope, etc. Did I get a thank you? No........ Are you seeing a pattern?
Thirdly, for Thanksgiving I knew she never really got to have a Thanksgiving with a family, so I invited her to the Guinn casa. Anyone who knows David's parents, know that they are some of the nicest and most hospitable people. While she was there, she was goofing around playing with some glass ball decorations that sit in a bowl. Darrell told her repeatedly to stop and be careful because they were glass. Did she listen? No, and what happened? It broke. Then, David took her aside and got on her but not in a bad way. She thinks David is too demanding because he disciplines her often. She then proceeded to sleep in the sunroom for two hours. I tried to invite her back in to help with the Christmas tree, and she didn't want to come back in to help. I guess she was embarrassed. Anyway, before she came, I told her there were three conditions of her coming over: 1.) no complaining 2.) no talking back to David 3.) she will have to leave when we were ready. She then proceeded to ask when we were going to leave because she had an appointment to call some boy by the name of Jyrmanie. I told her that she shouldn't have come if she had obligations to call people. Insane! I really and truly thought that having her be a part of this holiday would mean something to her, but it didn't.
I guess my frustration is that I have given so much to this child because I care, and at this point, I feel as though it means nothing to the child. I don't know what to do at this point. I will not abandon her, but she makes it tough for me to always offer for her to do things when there is no respect and gratitude. She's sliding downward, and I don't know what else I can do. I have given everything I have to this child. I guess I was foolish for thinking I could make a difference because she always reverts back to her old self. I must give it to Nana as she is one patient person. I am very patient too. I know G comes from a bad place, so I try to give her leeway. I really do empathize for her because I cannot imagine what it would be like to grow up in her shoes. Because of this though, I would think she would appreciate me more. Maybe she is just used to no one sticking with her. I will stick with her no matter how hard it gets though.
....and those are my random thoughts.
Secondly, I do a lot for this child, and I mean a lot. I love spending time with her and doing things with her, but the thank you's are few and far between. For example, I know she loves the Twilight series, so as a surprise last week, I took her to see the New Moon movie and bought her a drink and popcorn. We all know how much that costs. Did I get a thank you? Nope, sure didn't. I also had a jewelry party recently where I got a ton of jewelry, and I decided to order her a couple things of my *free* items, which aren't actually free because you still pay shipping and tax. I got her a silver cross ring, and bracelet that has interchangeable sayings such as faith, hope, etc. Did I get a thank you? No........ Are you seeing a pattern?
Thirdly, for Thanksgiving I knew she never really got to have a Thanksgiving with a family, so I invited her to the Guinn casa. Anyone who knows David's parents, know that they are some of the nicest and most hospitable people. While she was there, she was goofing around playing with some glass ball decorations that sit in a bowl. Darrell told her repeatedly to stop and be careful because they were glass. Did she listen? No, and what happened? It broke. Then, David took her aside and got on her but not in a bad way. She thinks David is too demanding because he disciplines her often. She then proceeded to sleep in the sunroom for two hours. I tried to invite her back in to help with the Christmas tree, and she didn't want to come back in to help. I guess she was embarrassed. Anyway, before she came, I told her there were three conditions of her coming over: 1.) no complaining 2.) no talking back to David 3.) she will have to leave when we were ready. She then proceeded to ask when we were going to leave because she had an appointment to call some boy by the name of Jyrmanie. I told her that she shouldn't have come if she had obligations to call people. Insane! I really and truly thought that having her be a part of this holiday would mean something to her, but it didn't.
I guess my frustration is that I have given so much to this child because I care, and at this point, I feel as though it means nothing to the child. I don't know what to do at this point. I will not abandon her, but she makes it tough for me to always offer for her to do things when there is no respect and gratitude. She's sliding downward, and I don't know what else I can do. I have given everything I have to this child. I guess I was foolish for thinking I could make a difference because she always reverts back to her old self. I must give it to Nana as she is one patient person. I am very patient too. I know G comes from a bad place, so I try to give her leeway. I really do empathize for her because I cannot imagine what it would be like to grow up in her shoes. Because of this though, I would think she would appreciate me more. Maybe she is just used to no one sticking with her. I will stick with her no matter how hard it gets though.
....and those are my random thoughts.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Am I Missing Something?----New Moon
Okay, so I saw New Moon today. I can honestly say it is not something I would pay for at a movie theater typically, but I took Gracie since I knew she likes the series. I saw Twilight only because I rented to see what all the fuss was about...it was okay. New Moon was a little better, but I just don't get the fascination with this series. Can someone fill me in on the secret? The werewolves looked fake, and Edward is just too pasty. It doesn't teach young girls anything worthwhile either. All in all it was an okay movie, but I just don't get it......There are so many better plot lines and actors than what we see in this series.
Saturday, November 14, 2009
I'm Baaaaaaaaack!
Okay, so I have not blogged since October 10th...yowsers! I do have good reason though. One, my life is not exciting, and two, my right arm has been in a cast for about the last month.
As for the cast, I just have a broken finger. I broke my right pinky finger when I was kicked in my right hand by Gracie. We were at a local gym shooting some hoops preparing for her middle school basketball tryouts when she decided to try to kick the basketball from my hands. Well, we obviously know what happened next. I had a lovely baby blue cast halfway up my right arm; therefore, I was limited in my typing. This past Thursday I had my cast removed and now have a removable protector on my right hand. If you have never had a cast, it is one of the most annoying things, and I hate the confinement. Wearing a plastic bag on my right arm for a month while showering just doesn't cut it for me. Needless to say, my finger is recovering well.
Okay, and to catch up on everything else......Two weeks ago I started my new job as a Team Leader. This position is an actual promotion. I currently have 26 people reporting to me, which is a bit overwhelming at first, but I'll get used to it. I had been doing Business Development for a short stint from August to October. That's all that's new in the work department, and I don't like to talk about work when I'm not working.
David is still playing house husband keeping up with things for me. Avery is doing well in school and just finished soccer as well. He is going to play basketball. That should be interesting for six year-olds. Gracie has finished soccer season, so my coaching for the season is over. I absolutely loved it. It made me miss soccer. Now, she is onto basketball, but I am not coaching that.
All else is calm on the Guinn front. Now, I'm just looking forward to the holidays. The Christmas tree goes up next week!
The lovely cast
Me in the Eastern Carolina University Pirate Ship (Greenville, NC)--Yes I am in a suit. This was my only entertainment while on this work trip.
As for the cast, I just have a broken finger. I broke my right pinky finger when I was kicked in my right hand by Gracie. We were at a local gym shooting some hoops preparing for her middle school basketball tryouts when she decided to try to kick the basketball from my hands. Well, we obviously know what happened next. I had a lovely baby blue cast halfway up my right arm; therefore, I was limited in my typing. This past Thursday I had my cast removed and now have a removable protector on my right hand. If you have never had a cast, it is one of the most annoying things, and I hate the confinement. Wearing a plastic bag on my right arm for a month while showering just doesn't cut it for me. Needless to say, my finger is recovering well.
Okay, and to catch up on everything else......Two weeks ago I started my new job as a Team Leader. This position is an actual promotion. I currently have 26 people reporting to me, which is a bit overwhelming at first, but I'll get used to it. I had been doing Business Development for a short stint from August to October. That's all that's new in the work department, and I don't like to talk about work when I'm not working.
David is still playing house husband keeping up with things for me. Avery is doing well in school and just finished soccer as well. He is going to play basketball. That should be interesting for six year-olds. Gracie has finished soccer season, so my coaching for the season is over. I absolutely loved it. It made me miss soccer. Now, she is onto basketball, but I am not coaching that.
All else is calm on the Guinn front. Now, I'm just looking forward to the holidays. The Christmas tree goes up next week!
The lovely cast
Me in the Eastern Carolina University Pirate Ship (Greenville, NC)--Yes I am in a suit. This was my only entertainment while on this work trip.
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Random Text/Dream
Last night I had a dream that one of my old friends had moved down the street and wanted to reconnect and become friends again. It was an interesting dream, and then today I received two random text messages from this same friend saying she wanted to be friends again too. The odd thing is though that the two text messages came from two different cell phone numbers both with area codes in Florida. The friend I believe lives in Knoxville still. I don't quite know what to think about this. I didn't respond to the text messages because I am undecided about the messages. I find it extremely odd too that I had a dream about this friend last night...completely out of the blue. What is the big guy trying to tell me?
Monday, October 5, 2009
Latest Updates
Okay, I've been away from my blog for a bit now. It's soley because nothing has been going on newsworthy. I've just been busy. I've unfortunately been watching Vols football and their multiple losses :-( Other than that, I've been loving coaching soccer and playing with the kids. It has been twelve years since I have played and amazingly, I can still move with my two artificial hips. I surprised myself with that. Gracie is playing extremely well and has greatly improved since last season. Other than that, David is still looking for a job, and I hope the job market improves. We went through this last year around Christmas time, and it's not fun. Otherwise, we are doing great! That's it for now.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
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